I used to spend money on silly things too, but now that I see it I remember thinking " I don't even care, I'm not going to get rich from hoarding money, I can barely put money together".

Imagine, I remember spending €100 on a perfume when I only had €300 on me. Today that I have a more stable life I would never spend so much money on that.

I think that overwork made me want to compensate with things. Family was far away, I didn't see friends, I thought "the hell I'm going to give myself this gift".

In short, I wouldn't want to go back to that time, I was so lonely.