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Susana, I Miss You So Much!
You couldn’t have died. It wasn’t your time yet, not even near .
I still needed you, I needed you to be here ! I’m sorry for the selfishness, but is only my mere feeling.
I needed your smile, to see your blue eyes that smiled for you when you felt happy. I needed your blond hair and the sun that beat down on it and made you look like a heavenly angel.
You once told me that you believed in some existence beyond this one. Maybe that’s why my brain deceives me. Sometimes I swear I feel you beside me, or sitting in front of me looking at me and for me.
A few months after your death, one morning in the first fall after you were gone, mourning and weeping over your absence I ran through the woods. I swear that when I stopped almost falling over with tears, I felt you in front of me stopping my run. You embraced me!
Call me crazy, maybe I was, maybe I am!
I miss your voice, and even more your words which were always so full of wisdom.
I’m standing next to the table where we used to sit. So much you have missed in these last almost five years. Five years! I can’t believe you have been dead for almost five years!
If I told you why I was sitting on the terrace and not inside the cafe! Well listen to me, you won’t believe it!
