This was beautiful. It also reminded me of my friend Susana who died of cancer in 2017. When I heard the news I sat next to her coffin and I burst into tears. I couldn’t control myself. A teacher pulled my arm and took me outside and said “don’t cry she is finally out of her misery. She was in too much pain”. She was only 57. I think her family have also become something very different. My grandparents are still around : grandad is 90 and grandma is 83. But she looks so much more fragile than him. I sometimes wonder if she dies first than him I think he will just die after . Every time I visit them they are always together holding hands. It’s been almost 64 years of marriage having lived in such awful and painful ways… anyway I am venting out.

Your story was beautiful and your mom seemed to be a lovely person. Too bad you don’t remember when was the last time everybody was together. Maybe you can be the glue your mom was. Maybe she would be very happy somehow in another sort of existence where our loved ones are seeing and waiting for us ❤️