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Female Sexuality
What’s, You Know, “Your Number”?
Here it is, one of the most ridiculous and embarrassing questions ever. If I thought this question was a myth coming from the doctor, one day, out of the blue, I was asked it, and the myth fell right there.
Do you know those moments when you seem to step out of your own body for an instant and look at yourself paralyzed without knowing what to say? If so, that’s how I felt for a few long seconds when I heard that.
And then, there was an approximate number that the doctor wrote in huge letters at the top of the page. Yes, approximate, and is there a problem?
Most likely not for you who are reading.
But for me, there was an unconscious voice telling me that I was in a wrong life, taking a path that would lead me to unhappiness.
It is not at all unreasonable to say that I was somewhat unhappy, but this unhappiness was not coming from the occasional sex I had with some partners during my twenties. The gloom was coming more from this voice telling me I shouldn’t do that.
And yes, so often I heard stories of “those horny women are all sluts,” or how too much female sexual desire was seen as something immoral that, well, all that crap just stayed with me, even if I consciously refuted all those ideas.
